Hack, slash, boom!

It's been an odd little while since I last updated. I've been emotional, yet unwilling to talk about it, and happy but unwilling to accept it.

Things are going well for me, yet I continually wonder when that will cease being the case. I've been allowing myself the luxury of simply accepting what is in front of me and stamping down the questions in my head, and it hasn't been easy.

A few days ago I had a little talk with CJ. I told him about how I was starting to think about making a life, with kids and such, with Erik, yet I was worried if I told Erik that he would panic and go off and fuck around on me again. CJ kinda thought that wasn't possible, as there is nothing around to act as a temptor to Erik. I decided to talk to Erik, and he turned out to be alright with everything.

There are times when I wonder if I am doing the right thing in putting my trust in Erik, like maybe I shoudl give up the ghost and just accept that maybe love isn't enough, no matter how you want it to be. Then I smile, and look over at him, and think to myself 'He wouldn't be here if he didn't want to be.' and that makes me feel better.

CJ hates vomiting zombies. Apparently they are one of many menaces in Castlevania.

I'm hungry, I wonder what we have...